Hello sweeties, just popping in to say hi.
Today it´s a beautiful summer day and I´m enjoying it to the fullest. We´ve had some chilly and grey days recently, so I´m glad for the change.
The rascals are happy as can be, especially since they just bought their Saturday candy – oh joy..! Since my youngest apetite isn´t the best at the moment, I´m actually equally happy that he wants it – some extra calories on his thin body.
He has now done half of his chemo sessions, it seems like a long way to go though until we´re done. I wouldn´t say he´s doing great – it takes it´s toll, that´s for sure – but his mood is as cheerful as it´s always been and he´s strong and tough.
It could be worse.
We´re dreaming and planning for the trip to America we´ll do when he´s regained his strength eventually. As some of you know, I did the same trip with my oldest about a year ago and it was a wonderful mother-son time. Can´t wait until we´re set to go.
Other than visiting the hospital for his treatment, days are passing by in a nice way. The dogs keeps me busy as I bet you can imagine (why do I always forget how often a puppy pees?!) and I enjoy the slow pace. I´ve even been taking pictures as you can see above; a sign that some normality is back in my life.
I hope you´re enjoying yourselves wherever you are and whatever you´re doing, I appreciate your kind thoughts. Take care until the next time!
… and why it might be so for a while:
Yes indeed; our Molly is in the house as those of you who follow me on Instagram already knows. She´s so very fun to be around; a happy, clever and cute puppy in every way. She´s also everywhere all the time so she´s keeping me busy, that´s for sure.
We all love her dearly; such a positive addition to our home.
I´ve been thinking of this blog and what to do with it. At the moment it feels hard to post since my life revolves around my sons cancer treatment. It´s all going well, but I´m not keen on posting photos of him since that would feel like going against his integrity. By the same reason there´s not many photos I can post of my oldest son since his usually around his brother when he´s at home.
So I´d be left with using photos of flowers, food and animals which is all fine – but honestly; it feels weird to post just about such light hearted things when we in reality are going through something quite hard.
So what to do? Well, I think I will know the day it feels fine to blog here again – and until then it will rest. My sons treatment will be over in the end of 2015 so that will probably be when I show up for real again, not just these rare posts.
Because trust me on this; I long for that day when I can talk with you again and the blog will not be dead until I say so. I also have some pretty large changes in my life going on, in the best of ways.
So I hope you´ll stick around sweeties.
I´ll end this post with a photo my oldest son took of Molly and I, he tries to think about composition and such and I let him decide how to edit the photo in Photoshop as well. The result was a bit light – but that´s how you learn and I´m not correcting him. He´ll find his way eventually, and it still was a bloody good pic by a 12-year old.
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It is just lovely, I always feel so cheerful when spring arrives. Flowers, buds and insects – they have all shown theirselves and I´m excited of what will come next.
Everything is actually great at this point; my oldest rascal is doing fantastic in school which is amazing due to the circumstances. I´m very proud of him – it´s not that easy to study when your little brother is sick.
Youngest rascal have had some really good weeks as well. The latest chemo wasn´t that bad when it comes to nausea, so he´s actually been eating and gaining weight. I´m most happy about that since he´ll get the other chemo soon which will likely reduce his appetite again. We´ve bought ourselves an huge trampoline (which swallows most of the garden, oh my) to help him train his balance while jumping along with his brother. And soon Molly will come; within just about two weeks we´ll have a little liqurice troll puppy bringing love and making damage in our home.
I´m relishing in all good that I can, let me tell you.
And again; spring. The birds wake me up every morning (as we sleep with our window open) and I´m excited about planting flowers and eatables. We´ll not be able to travel this summer due to my youngest´treatment, but we´ll have a great time nonetheless. I´m content as long as the rascals are.
So how is everything where you are? Has spring arrived?
My youngest has a fever today, which is a total bummer since he eats too little anyway. Called the hospital and they don´t think it has to do with the chemo since his blood levels were good last Tuesday, so it seems it´s ”just” an ordinary spring cold which I personally had hoped he would escape. It´s tough enough as it is for him, but what to do with all the viruses flying around.
Hopefully, he´ll get better soon.
Last night I had my first serious attempt at a moon pic, I was pretty happy with the result:
I´ll continue practicing and hope for a beautiful, star filled sky as well some night.
A couple of days ago I had a lovely dinner out with equally lovely friend Malin:
It was so fun to let the hours fly while chattering along like two teens – and the tapas were great as well:
With everything that´s going on at home, I often forget that there´s a world outside – but luckily for me I have good friends who reminds me.
Oh well, keep your fingers crossed that my sons fever goes away faster than fast please – and take care!
I have hardly seen a horse since my son got his diagnosis last October, and as most of you know I loved to ride before all of that happened. There just haven´t been time or opportunity to keep that going for a while, so I was thrilled in the best of ways when my friend Pia texted me today and asked me to join her at her stable.
The breed is called Exmoor pony and is new to me, though my friend has been riding them for a while. They are small; about the size of an Icelandic horse – and very hardy and cute.
Pia wanted me to join her for a riding lesson in the future and I think I just have to – it awakened a longing in me when I watched them riding.
Anyway; it was lovely to inhale the horse smell deep down into my lungs again (though I was freezing my behind off, it was so cold outside today) and I look forward to the next time.
(yes, I´m pretty and I know it….)
Now I´m waiting to dig into the cake my mother in law is baking with the help of the rascals – I hope you´re having a great Sunday as well.
… and believe it or not; the blog owner is still around – though not very active at the moment. It´s sad in a way since I love my little place online, but I know you understand why the posts are rare right now. I hope you appreciate the ones I share – better and more active days will come.
My youngest rascal has finished the first block of chemo and it went well. Of course he has low blood tests since that´s what chemo do, but he´s quite happy and content even though eating is hard for him. It´s scary how drastic that makes you lose appetite and I have to say that it´s the biggest issue so far – I don´t want him to lose too much weight during all of this. He has some tired days, but most days he´s pretty good. It will get worse ahead (he´ll do 7 more blocks) but I´m glad for as long as it stays like this.
Today we´ve had a lovely picnic in the spring sun – it was absolutely wonderful! Lots of birds of different kinds has returned to the lake we sat by and it was liberating to feel the sun and the wind and to hear their chatter.
Summer will be here sooner than we know it.
My rascals had fun making and sitting next to the campfire – and personally, I love the smell of a fire outside. Makes everything taste better.
Great day, the boys were happy and tired when we returned home.
We´ve had some good news regarding our new family member; Molly (named by youngest rascal) was born March 6th and will be ready to move around May 1st! Everyone is giddy about it, though hubby still mutters about our home transforming into a zoo… I don´t know why that is a bad thing..?
So; I hope you´re great wherever you are – I aim to get my next post up faster. Take care!
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It´s been a long time since I posted some of my Instagram pics, so here they are – some colorful and some winter-ish.
I´ve recently started to take quite minimalistic photos there as well, so you´re welcome to follow if you´re interested in that. It is fun to try something different in between.
Spring is in the air today – the snow is melting, the birdies are singing and the sun is warming my face as I take my walks. If I´m lucky the lovely weather will keep as I go to Stockholm this weekend, I´m in much need of a little break after these last months. Will spend time with nice friends and – of course – with stuffing my face full at restaurants.
Love good food even more when someone else cooks it and clean the kitchen.
So how is your day?
It´s been snowing and snowing and snowing some more – I actually feel a bit surprised by the amounts. I do have a very happy, four-legged member of the family thanks to it all – despite the fact that she hardly gets her head above the snow masses in our garden.
Wohoo – here I come..!
So this has truly been a real winter so far even for us in the south of Sweden – and I have to say that it´s much easier to get the rascals out to play when it looks like this instead of muddy backyards.
We´re waiting to add another member to our family; a Flatcoated retriever pup. At least 75% of the family are beyond theirselves with happiness, 25% (aka hubby) sighs deeply and mutters that we´ll live in a zoo.
She´ll arrive this summer sometime and hence isn´t even born yet – so I hope the litter will have at least one female puppy or the rascals will get very disappointed. Fingers crossed and all that. I look forward to it, our dog before Elsa was a Flatcoated retriever and she was just the most loving soul and very fun to work with.
I suspect Elsa will pout for a year or so, we´ll see. She´ll still be the only dog allowed in my bed and that may make up for some of it. Maybe.
About two weeks now until my sons chemotherapy and I´m getting nervous, however I´ve met two wonderful mothers on Facebook that have been through all of this with their kids who had the same tumor. They are great to talk with and helps me stay as positive as possible – their kids are doing fine now after treatment. Social media can truly be a bliss, no matter what people say sometimes.
So you know; when I sit in my kitchen and look out during the days, it´s mostly good thoughts which I am thankful for.
And the light is coming back as well, which makes everything even better. It was such a lovely glow in our livingroom the other day that I asked to get my photo taken;
It should be forbidden to ever take a photo without natural light, that´s all I´m saying..!
Take care sweeties!
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So much is happening and the days are running by like crazy! My youngest, sweet rascal had his last radiation session a week ago which felt great – one step closer to health. He also celebrated his 10th birthday January 16th – a big day! As you can see, he was happy as can be with his gifts and he also had a birthday party the day after with his closest friends.
He didn´t lose all of his hair due to radiation but it´s very thin – and it will fall off when the treatment continues. Doesn´t bother us at all, it will grow back and frankly we´re all just happy that he´s been in school every day lately. His friends and teachers are important to him.
I seriously don´t understand where he gets his energy from, but he pulls through somehow. A true fighter and I love him endlessly.
Besides that, we´ve got winter. Lots of snow falling which makes the world look clean and pretty in every way. I love looking out into the white:
During winter, I enjoy cooking and baking a bit extra compared to when it´s summer, it feels cozy and warm and makes our home smell lovely and welcoming.
Freshly baked bread with a ton of slowly melting butter on is nothing but divine, I always eat too much of it. It´s a good thing I take my walks with Elsa or my behind would be twice as wide..! Not kidding.
I hope everything is well with you sweeties, I appreciate your support so much during this time!